Recently I've become intrigued by age play.
The thought of being able to go back to the age of 6 really appeals to me. I have to admit I know very very little about age play in it self. My thoughts of it revolve around cuddles, feelings of safety, jelly and ice cream and lollipops.
I have no idea, as I write this, how accurate my thoughts are. Although I do know there are many types of age play. I know that adult baby play doesn't interest me. I've heard a few podcasts around the subject but that's all.
Saturday, 22 August 2009
Friday, 21 August 2009
The Rules
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All Chocolate, Fizzy Drinks, Fast Food and other Unhealthy foods must be discussed with Obsidian prior to consumption.
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Vitamin tablets must be taken everyday with out fail and checked off on the calender.
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If Scarlet begins to feel that she needs a release and therefore is tempted to break the rules she must discuss this with Obsidian before it becomes a problem so maintenance can be carried out.
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Nails must be neat and (if time permits) painted at all times. If nail polish becomes scratched or chipped it must be touched up, removed or replaced as soon as possible.
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All cupboard doors and draws must be closed and everything put away as soon as Scarlet has finished with them.
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Scarlet must be clean, underwear matching and ready for inspection at all times.
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Additions to Rationing.
Well today I came home with a bottle of coke in my car (mostly drunk), and so Obsidian feels we should add fizzy drinks and all other bad foods (including burgers and other fast food and anything unhealthy) to the list.
Any un-discussed consumption of unhealthy foods will result in corporal punishment, with the cord.
This makes me feel better in some way. Some how stronger. Like I'm less likely to fail. And if I slip I haven't failed at....something bigger......life, I suppose.
In the last few days the cord has been out on a number of occasions all for small but very valid reasons.
To help me to keep the cord away Obsidian suggested I should start to write a list of the rules...... So my next post will be the beginning of the list and I can keep referring back to it and adding to it as new rules come up.
Any un-discussed consumption of unhealthy foods will result in corporal punishment, with the cord.
This makes me feel better in some way. Some how stronger. Like I'm less likely to fail. And if I slip I haven't failed at....something bigger......life, I suppose.
In the last few days the cord has been out on a number of occasions all for small but very valid reasons.
To help me to keep the cord away Obsidian suggested I should start to write a list of the rules...... So my next post will be the beginning of the list and I can keep referring back to it and adding to it as new rules come up.
Chocolate rationing
Today Obsidian and I have come to an agreement.
Due to my difficultly losing weight and controlling myself (especially where chocolate is concerned), chocolate will now be rationed on a discussion basis.
If I want chocolate I will go to Obsidian with a proposal, even to ask if I can have chocolate. We will then discuss my reasoning as to why I want it and if I should have it. Obsidian will decide how much I should have and I must follow that.
If I break our agreement the cord comes out.
Not sure how we'll work this for when I'm away from Obsidian and with friends but... we'll see how it goes!
Wednesday, 19 August 2009
Change in whole being.
I feel so much better! I've been feeling awful for weeks. I've been forgetting things and I've even been beginning to think of leaving Obsidian - I have been well and truly screwed up! It's not till it's taken away that it becomes obvious how bad it's gotten.
And why am I feeling so much better!?!?!
I suppose you could call it a really good massage.
We were having a really stressful day, and I was feeling like if I could opt out of life I would. I was working away on a new project and Obsidian decided to come and be friendly. Tickling. Well that's just great for obsidian - but as I said, it just makes me worked up and tense!
At that Obsidian grabbed me by the hand and pulled me over his knee :). OTK spanking made me feel a little more relaxed, I was feeling a lot less hopeless.
Later as we finished up what we were doing obsidian came out of the other room with a power cord. I had no idea what he was planning when he said he was just wanting to test something.
What does it feel like being flogged with a doubled up power cord....? It's both thumpy and stingy at the same time. The curled over end stings like the end of whip - at one point I was worried about the welts it would leave. The length of cord is much nicer, if that's the right word. It's thumpy, it's thudy and it's nice.
Having had such a long time of repressing my masochistic side I found it hard to release, to let the waves of please and pain take over and overwhelm me. Something in side of me kept fighting. I had to keep asking for a break. I panicked, worried if someone might hear, rolled over on my back or my side from all fours when I felt I could take anymore.
Obsidian was wonderful, he kept picking me up, repositioning me and carrying on. Occasionally changing to spanking or thumping. But I just couldn't break, I couldn't let go. Only when I told him I really needed to stop (or was it have a break?) that he told me that he wouldn't until I broke. That was the point at which I realised how much I was holding back. I released as much as I could of the wall I had up and the sobbing started.
The relief I had felt before was nothing in comparison, as he slapped, kicked and spanked me the frustrations, the hurt, the pain, the sadness all flowed out in racking sobs. Leaving it it place, warmth, love, relief and a wonderful glowing ache in side. As I lay there sobbing, releasing the pent up emotion in his arms, head resting against his knee, I felt closer to him that I had in months. I had come back. I felt whole again. Scarlet is back!
When I think back to the fire like glow I had radiating for buttocks and legs earlier I feel a warmth and tenderness inside that I have had for I don't know how long.
And why am I feeling so much better!?!?!
I suppose you could call it a really good massage.
We were having a really stressful day, and I was feeling like if I could opt out of life I would. I was working away on a new project and Obsidian decided to come and be friendly. Tickling. Well that's just great for obsidian - but as I said, it just makes me worked up and tense!
At that Obsidian grabbed me by the hand and pulled me over his knee :). OTK spanking made me feel a little more relaxed, I was feeling a lot less hopeless.
Later as we finished up what we were doing obsidian came out of the other room with a power cord. I had no idea what he was planning when he said he was just wanting to test something.
What does it feel like being flogged with a doubled up power cord....? It's both thumpy and stingy at the same time. The curled over end stings like the end of whip - at one point I was worried about the welts it would leave. The length of cord is much nicer, if that's the right word. It's thumpy, it's thudy and it's nice.
Having had such a long time of repressing my masochistic side I found it hard to release, to let the waves of please and pain take over and overwhelm me. Something in side of me kept fighting. I had to keep asking for a break. I panicked, worried if someone might hear, rolled over on my back or my side from all fours when I felt I could take anymore.
Obsidian was wonderful, he kept picking me up, repositioning me and carrying on. Occasionally changing to spanking or thumping. But I just couldn't break, I couldn't let go. Only when I told him I really needed to stop (or was it have a break?) that he told me that he wouldn't until I broke. That was the point at which I realised how much I was holding back. I released as much as I could of the wall I had up and the sobbing started.
The relief I had felt before was nothing in comparison, as he slapped, kicked and spanked me the frustrations, the hurt, the pain, the sadness all flowed out in racking sobs. Leaving it it place, warmth, love, relief and a wonderful glowing ache in side. As I lay there sobbing, releasing the pent up emotion in his arms, head resting against his knee, I felt closer to him that I had in months. I had come back. I felt whole again. Scarlet is back!
When I think back to the fire like glow I had radiating for buttocks and legs earlier I feel a warmth and tenderness inside that I have had for I don't know how long.
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