I feel so much better! I've been feeling awful for weeks. I've been forgetting things and I've even been beginning to think of leaving Obsidian - I have been well and truly screwed up! It's not till it's taken away that it becomes obvious how bad it's gotten.
And why am I feeling so much better!?!?!
I suppose you could call it a really good massage.
We were having a really stressful day, and I was feeling like if I could opt out of life I would. I was working away on a new project and Obsidian decided to come and be friendly. Tickling. Well that's just great for obsidian - but as I said, it just makes me worked up and tense!
At that Obsidian grabbed me by the hand and pulled me over his knee :). OTK spanking made me feel a little more relaxed, I was feeling a lot less hopeless.
Later as we finished up what we were doing obsidian came out of the other room with a power cord. I had no idea what he was planning when he said he was just wanting to test something.
What does it feel like being flogged with a doubled up power cord....? It's both thumpy and stingy at the same time. The curled over end stings like the end of whip - at one point I was worried about the welts it would leave. The length of cord is much nicer, if that's the right word. It's thumpy, it's thudy and it's nice.
Having had such a long time of repressing my masochistic side I found it hard to release, to let the waves of please and pain take over and overwhelm me. Something in side of me kept fighting. I had to keep asking for a break. I panicked, worried if someone might hear, rolled over on my back or my side from all fours when I felt I could take anymore.
Obsidian was wonderful, he kept picking me up, repositioning me and carrying on. Occasionally changing to spanking or thumping. But I just couldn't break, I couldn't let go. Only when I told him I really needed to stop (or was it have a break?) that he told me that he wouldn't until I broke. That was the point at which I realised how much I was holding back. I released as much as I could of the wall I had up and the sobbing started.
The relief I had felt before was nothing in comparison, as he slapped, kicked and spanked me the frustrations, the hurt, the pain, the sadness all flowed out in racking sobs. Leaving it it place, warmth, love, relief and a wonderful glowing ache in side. As I lay there sobbing, releasing the pent up emotion in his arms, head resting against his knee, I felt closer to him that I had in months. I had come back. I felt whole again. Scarlet is back!
When I think back to the fire like glow I had radiating for buttocks and legs earlier I feel a warmth and tenderness inside that I have had for I don't know how long.
And why am I feeling so much better!?!?!
I suppose you could call it a really good massage.
We were having a really stressful day, and I was feeling like if I could opt out of life I would. I was working away on a new project and Obsidian decided to come and be friendly. Tickling. Well that's just great for obsidian - but as I said, it just makes me worked up and tense!
At that Obsidian grabbed me by the hand and pulled me over his knee :). OTK spanking made me feel a little more relaxed, I was feeling a lot less hopeless.
Later as we finished up what we were doing obsidian came out of the other room with a power cord. I had no idea what he was planning when he said he was just wanting to test something.
What does it feel like being flogged with a doubled up power cord....? It's both thumpy and stingy at the same time. The curled over end stings like the end of whip - at one point I was worried about the welts it would leave. The length of cord is much nicer, if that's the right word. It's thumpy, it's thudy and it's nice.
Having had such a long time of repressing my masochistic side I found it hard to release, to let the waves of please and pain take over and overwhelm me. Something in side of me kept fighting. I had to keep asking for a break. I panicked, worried if someone might hear, rolled over on my back or my side from all fours when I felt I could take anymore.
Obsidian was wonderful, he kept picking me up, repositioning me and carrying on. Occasionally changing to spanking or thumping. But I just couldn't break, I couldn't let go. Only when I told him I really needed to stop (or was it have a break?) that he told me that he wouldn't until I broke. That was the point at which I realised how much I was holding back. I released as much as I could of the wall I had up and the sobbing started.
The relief I had felt before was nothing in comparison, as he slapped, kicked and spanked me the frustrations, the hurt, the pain, the sadness all flowed out in racking sobs. Leaving it it place, warmth, love, relief and a wonderful glowing ache in side. As I lay there sobbing, releasing the pent up emotion in his arms, head resting against his knee, I felt closer to him that I had in months. I had come back. I felt whole again. Scarlet is back!
When I think back to the fire like glow I had radiating for buttocks and legs earlier I feel a warmth and tenderness inside that I have had for I don't know how long.
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