Needed

I kneel at his feet, feeling the rough carpet under my legs. My heart is thumping, my breathing shallow, my mouth dry. I find it hard to find the words. I know what I want, I know why I'm here but the descriptions and the courage elude me.

I want to be spanked. I want to be flogged. Not because I've done something wrong. Not because I need to cry away the stress. Because I need to feel close to you in a way I can't otherwise. Because I need to feel loved. Because the ache inside will not go away.

How can I tell you. How can I find the words.